Pulling yourself back up again is an exhausting process.
If you mess up today, just get back on track tomorrow.
All easier said than done. Anyone can get tired of pulling themselves back up again, getting back on the wagon, trying again.
Since we were last here I am back to 250 again. 250 for me is a number that symbolizes, failure, hatred, loathing, a waste of space.It is 10 lbs heavier than when I started training with a personal trainer. I can also feel myself getting weaker, not stronger, things I could lift easily before are heavy now.
I am losing muscle mass despite eating protein, lifting weights, and staying healthy. My body fat % is skyrocketing, so to those that are cheerleaders for muscle weighs more than fat get lost. I know it does, I have heard it a 1000 times, but right now its not what I want to hear. Mainly because if it was muscle then my clothes would fit better, but they fit worse than a year ago. So NO.
For now that is all I have to say. I don't know what else I can change to get 'better'.
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